Friday, June 29, 2012

Requiem for a Best Friend

Seamus is our family dog. He is a Lab and Rhodesian Ridgeback mix,  a pound puppy. The Lab part is prominent, the African lion hunter shows in just the coarse ridge of fur along his backbone. He is blonde short haired with patches of white on all paws, the tip of his tail, patches on his shoulders and a little streak on his forehead between  furrowed eye brows. He has long brown eye lashes and huge brown trusting eyes that look deep into your soul. He has a Lab's ears, completely expressive: all the way up he's excited focused, or asleep. At half mast his ears mean contemplation, curiosity, or possibly in trouble from eating the loaf of bread on the kitchen counter. And hound dog down, like now, just sadness.

 I've had a long string of dogs in my life but Seamus is by far the smartest and the most attuned to human mood and behavior. He was the runt of the litter; all his brothers used him as their pillow; and one look at him at 12 weeks and my family was hooked. We paid the pound to neuter him, chip him, give him his needed shots and brought him home. He was hungry, dehydrated, had pneumonia and needed the emergency animal hospital the first weekend, but he was instantly loved, fed, nurtured and became as ingrained into our family as another sibling.
Seamus  has liver and lung cancer at age six and will have to get the big sleep very soon. We are all  in denial; we have cried our eyes dry of tears in bouts. It doesn't change the inevitable. Seamus can hardly walk, his eyes say he doesn't understand why he is so bloated, why he can't run and play bone hockey on the slippery tile floor in the den. He is sad from sensing our sadness, just as he was sad when Sally was so sick with breast cancer.

He is a real comic: he sings when Kathleen plays her flute or blows into an empty bottle. He puts his head up and howls at the moon but is as serious about it as Kathleen is about playing: he is boldly signing a dog song and howls with great pride. He loves a giant nylon bone which he carries around wagging his tail and his whole rear half whenever we come home: a bone greeting showing off his most special possession to us. He will throw the bone into the den, pounce on it and slide across the floor: bone hockey. He is a great tease, carrying the bone or one of a variety of rubber balls over to us, just out of reach and jerking the ball away when we reach for it. It's the tease game and he trained us so we can all play it. He adopted the love seat in the living room under the picture window where he can sleep and keep an eye on the neighborhood.
Seamus has perfected a blood curdling snarl bark that scares our mailman enough that he keeps his hand on his pepper spray when he delivers the mail, but in fact Seamus would not hurt a flea unless he was protecting us. He is a gentle lamb, a real baby and at six, until his sudden decline was still as puppyish as he was at 6 months. He loves to sleep under a light blanket on Kathleen's bed at night.

Seamus is a Lab, but afraid of water (must be his African genes). He will dig in the mud at the edge of the lake, just to play in the mud, and only this year figured out he can wade out to his knees. He will sneak up to the edge of the pool and stare at his reflection, but he's not swimming; no way.
His greatest love besides ice cream is going for a walk or a car ride. As we prepare for either, he knows--he alerts on the words "walk" and "car" and "park" and starts running in circles. If we grab an empty plastic bag, he's beside himself with joy. Pure dog joy. Regardless how tired we are from a long day at work, his joy infects us. He is such a clever clown. He has given his family so many laughs, so many licks of love, and so much companionship, the accidents on the carpet and a few steaks stolen from the kitchen counter are not tallied or even remembered. He had an extra large serving of ice cream tonight. I wish he was well enough for one last walk. He will be sorely missed.

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